sorry, to be so blunt- for a whole day i have watched people here patting themselves on the back- we're a large army, oohh, look out wt, we might do something, well not today or tomorrow, but someday!
maybe, i have to just accept that a lot of jw's who are exiting the kh by the back door will never find a backbone to stand up to mummy and elder daddy.. jw's have a learned ability to see themselves in a better light than everyone else sees them.
ask a jw, if they are a charitable religion and they would likely all say they are, but when pressed to name a charity they will be unable to do so.
Obsessing over tearing down the Watchtower is allowing them to still control your life. Besides, by working against them, you're just fulfilling prophecy in their mind. Apathy is what made me feel marginalized. Strong opposition made me feel that we were at the center of a large "universal issue".
"Living well is the best revenge" -George Herbert
tonight's the night.. some of us should set our clocks 1 hour ahead.. sylvia.
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Thanks Sylvia, I had forgotten about that.
is it normal........after a year of being out of the org... and (to ditch everything in your life that made you feel worthless), is it normal, to still feel despair and a certain level of depression?.
i am going between extreme happiness and contentment ......relief and optimism, to a downright spiral of hitting the depths of somewhere dark and murky, that i know i dont want to be.
its scary and i dont like it.
It was painful to read your post on the other thread. Anyone who's been through what you've experienced would feel mentally and emotionally sick too. I wish with all my heart I had the power to take your pain away.
being very interested in psychology i read a book as a teenager and re-read it last year called " gestalt therapy verbatim " by frederick perls m.d.
ph, d. .
it deals with dreamwork therapy in which he conducted seminars helping people to re-connect with subconscious parts of themselves by recounting their dreams .
I often dream that I'm naked in public but no one notices. I also often dream that I'm back in high school.
they are showing it on the awards tonight and i really want to see it...just wondered what people thought of it.
did you enjoy it?.
snoozy.
Precious was painful to watch but I'm glad I went to see it.
i've started drinking again.
i stopped for a month but i gave in again.
sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?
thank you for your comments. I was expecting a lot of "you deserve it" comments (which, of course I do). It's morning now. I feel embarrassed for posting while intoxicated last night. I'm getting back on the wagon today.
i've started drinking again.
i stopped for a month but i gave in again.
sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?
Anyway, I'm going to bed now. It's 2:15am here and this glass of wine has made me tired. Thank you for listening.
